“A long time ago we used to be friends but I haven’t thought of you lately at all”

1.  I happened to see this flyer in my gym and recognized myself in one of the pictures. Can I now refer to myself as a fitness model?


I may have already added it to my resume.

2.  The pictures were taken at a boot camp style class I did with Ben in September of 2013. You can’t see Ben in the photo, but he’s at the very end of the rope in the tug of war picture. Sitting. While yelling, “I AM THE ANCHOR!”

He was probably worn out because earlier when it was his team’s turn to carry the tire around the gym – Ben did it mostly by himself. He held it above his head while running. It’s the one time I thought the term “beast mode” was actually applicable to what I was seeing. And not just because he turned red and veins were popping out rendering him no longer human looking. Or maybe so. At that moment, he did resemble the Freak Beast


from the hilarious Bro-Science.
Personally, I thought it should have started out with “bromoeba.”

3. I still cannot run. It has been 7 weeks. I am doing so much better, and can do everything else. In fact, last Sunday I did my first leg day since the injury. (I had just been sticking to full body workouts until I regained normal range of motion.) I did squats, lunges, deadlifts, and leg press – oh my! I kept the weight low(ish) and the reps high.  I was fine with no pain! Well, with no pain during the exercises. The next day though..

after-leg-day-at-the-gymAnd the day after that…

1939446_469650423136472_1868415574_nAnd then the third day…


And by the fourth day I was feeling like:


One of our clients asked my boss if I had been in a car accident or how I injured myself since it was obvious something had happened because I wasn’t able to walk normally. *Sigh*

So, lesson learned: no matter how much I’m injured do not go a month and half without a leg day EVER AGAIN. Which is why I want to cry that I just did it to myself again this morning when I JUST STOPPED HURTING.

4. Anyway, my point is that I thought FOR SURE I would be able to run this weekend. Sure, I had been in pain but it wasn’t pain caused from the injury. I had the plan to do run-walk intervals around a flat loop on the college campus near where I live. I made it a quarter of a mile before I knew that the pain wasn’t just to fade away as I had hoped. Once it starts, I can’t even just walk so that was out as well. So, I’m back to resting it for another week and hoping for different results next time. If I can’t run by April, I’m going to give up the hope of doing the Bearwallow Beast in May.


5. I’m trying to not let this depress me, so I’ve been focusing on leaning down, working on endurance without running, and running events that are a little further out. I have found another challenge in June: the Downhill at Dawn half marathon in Ridgecrest. Running 13 miles down Old Fort at dawn? Doesn’t that sound insane lovely?

Seriously, why do I think it’s a good idea to get up at 6am to go run 13 miles? I’m not going to think that the day of. I will HATE myself the day of. But now I’m thinking, “Sounds fun!”

However, the pictures from last year’s race are sooo pretty.


Also, there WILL be a medal:


My only hope is that I can start running, and know for sure I can do it before the race sells out. (They’re already 3/5ths of the way there.) I know that the “downhill” part is deceiving and it makes it sound easier than it actually is. After reading several course reviews, I’ve learned that the finish line is actually on an uphill (which should be illegal), that there are several hills on the course, and that running that much downhill really kills your quads and your calves. So, while not “easy” it should be a fun course. And maybe MAYBE I will be so sleepy that it will be 7am before I even realize I’m running.

5 comments to “A long time ago we used to be friends but I haven’t thought of you lately at all”

  • reb

    Sad that the muscle is not healing quicker. Are you carrying the tire in that gym picture?

    • No, the ladies carrying the tire have awesome hourglass figures. I don’t think I’ll ever be that perfectly proportioned (which I’m cool with.)

      I’m in the back in the tug of war picture. You can’t see my face. I only recognized myself because of how disproportionately small my arms are to my body. (Small in circumference not in length. I’m not a T-Rex or anything, hahaha.)

    • I watched a video on different causes of groin pain while running. One of them said recovery can sometimes take years. I held back the tears, and am holding on to hope.

      (Although, if it’s not better in a month I’ll definitely go see a doctor. Even though, it really sounds like the only treatments are time, not pushing the injury, and to strengthen the muscles around where the pain is coming from.)

      • Cicely

        um, you haven’t seen a doctor yet? Do you think maybe you should just to rule out that it’s what you think it is and not something else?